"The miracle isn't that I finished. The miracle is that I had the courage to start." ~John Bingham
Finally.....it was race day. I was hopeful that I could do the 13.1 miles, but I wasn't convinced. That doubt---the one that I think we all have in our abilities---was still hanging on. This had been one of my goals for 3 years.....but could I really do it?
Here is a map of the race course for those of you who are interested--we started at the Ferry Building and ran all along the Embarcadero, along the wharf, through the Marina Green and Chrissy Fields, up to the Golden Gate Bridge, across the bridge (actually on the roadway because they shut 3 lanes of traffic down---this is the only time you will ever get this opportunity!) and back, and then into Golden Gate Park to the finish. Here is a great video of the course that really shows you excactly what I did....it's pretty cool, so check it out!
The girls and I took the usual pre-race photos...please note that I'm sporting my OSU running shorts and that my bib read "Go Pokes!" One of my non-OSU friends said that was stupid. I hung up on him. We bleed orange around here y'all!

And then, I took my place at the starting line along with the other 15,000 runners.
The gun went off, and away I went. As I crossed the start, I pushed play on my iPod shuffle in order to start up the awesome new playlist I made thanks to my blog readers suggestions....and nothing happened. I pushed it again, and heard the most dreaded of sounds....dead battery.
I had purposefully charged it the night before by plugging it into the computer while College Roomie and Blonde Oklahoma Girl were singing karaoke in the hotel room. Apparently, it didn't charge. About this time, I pass the girls who are cheering me on and I turn around and scream "My iPod is not working!!!" Here is photo proof. See the little head with arms raised in panic?
Well, this was one of those, "when the going gets tough" moments in life. I had never run without an iPod. Nor I had never run 13.1 miles. But you know what, today was going to be that day. And so I ran. And I decided at 1.25 miles that there would be no quitting. Today was my day.
And so I just kept running. And I talked to everyone who I passed (or who passed me). We talked about running and iPods and the views and the hills and what we would have for dinner. I took pictures of myself and the views. I called my parents and my brother from the Golden Gate Bridge and answered a text from Georgia Boy, who was supposed to be running with me, but had overslept.
I was not totally without music.....I kept singing two lines from two songs.....the chorus from Rehab (thank you karaoke two nights before!) and the only line I knew of that Black Eyed Peas Song "Let's Get it Started" that says "keep running, running hey running, running..." in my head. Yea...2.5 hours of THAT. But, pretty soon, I forgot about not having the iPod and I realized that I was doing this on my own. I am actually glad that I didn't have the iPod. Just made the goal harder and the achievement that much sweeter.
Running across the Golden Gate Bridge was something I can't put into words. I mean it was beautiful and invigorating and awesome. 
It got even better when I met up with Gonzaga Friend and got to run back across the bridge with her!
From about miles 11-13, I was pretty ready to be done. Mostly because I was starving. I mean, STARVING! And I was out of my jelly beans that I brought to snack on. But I kept on going. When I wanted to quit, I thought about a quote from Will Smith that I read a while back and absolutely love: I’m not afraid to die on a treadmill. I will not be outworked. You may be more talented than me. You might be smarter than me. And you may be better looking than me. But if we get on a treadmill together you are going to get off first or I’m going to die. It’s really that simple. I’m not going to be outworked.”
So that's what I did. I stayed on the treadmill. (If it's good enough for the Fresh Prince....)
About Mile 12 or so, there was a spectator with a sign at the base of a pretty small hill that said, "Keep going! Last hill!" I was so excited that it was the last hill that I could have kissed the guy. And then I rounded the corner and saw two more hills. Big fat lying cuss word. There was SERIOUS consideration about turning around, running back to that guy, punching him in the face, and then going back to finish the race. But I didn't have the energy. Lucky for him.
Instead, I texted the girls who were in a cab rushing across town (after each kicking booty in the 5K) to meet me at the finish that I had one mile to go! They were almost there, so there was at least a chance the timing would be perfect.
And then, I saw it. The sign that said 13 miles. Only .1 to go. And I kicked it into high gear. About that time, I saw the finish line and heard my friends screaming their heads off. If you haven't yet, you have to check out the video of me finishing here. Listen to the frantic screaming of my girls.....that's love y'all! I just ran my little heart out. And then.....I crossed the finish line.
But it was so much more than that. That doubt I talked about earlier? Crossing that line crushed it. My fear of failing? Gone. Concern over my physical fitness level? No mas. Feeling that I was not good enough....not today! All because I crossed that finish line. I'm not sure I've ever been more proud of anything I've done in my life. The feeling I had was one that I hope to carry into every other area of my life....the feeling that I can do anything, that I can overcome any obstacle, that I am good enough, and the knowledge that my friends will be there cheering me on when I reach my goals.
So, officially, I ran 13.1 miles in 2:34:51.
Unofficially, I think I changed my life. Not a bad way to spend a Sunday morning.
From the finish line wearing a cape, medal and a huge smile.....

Xoxo,
Gossip Girls!